This Life Isn't Fear!!!

okay soo i'm nearly 8 months pregnant and i can't do a thing!!! No parties of course , no one wants to hang out with a pregnant girl so only thing for me to do is school, hang with my boyfriend, parenting class on Saturday and church on Sunday. Once in a while my family will take me somewhere or i'll go somewhere with toby's family, but my life has become so BORING :(. Toby sneaks out to a party once in a while or go chill with his friends and even though its not often it pisses me off! I'm stuck and he's free how's that fear we did this together and i'm the only one suffering. I mean I know staying in the house with me seven days a week isn't always fun but hey I'M DOING IT!! I just hate this sometimes and I always say why this , why now! i'll be 18 years old while Zion will be two months. What 18 year old wants to be tied down with a child! Not one, but i've done this to myself and I will take full responsibility no matter how tough it gets. I'm just sad at the moment because of the effect it has on me and how it changed my life so far, but i'm deeply in love with my unborn!