Since i've made my return to school on the very first day it started i've been regretful. I wish i would have stayed home with Zion. He needs me right now but all this hard work trying to get out of high school is all for him i would have been satisfied with a GED honestly speaking. I haven't had enough sleep in a while and its killing me. I feel like i'm going to crash. Zion stays with his dad while i go to school and I love that, i rather him be their then some daycare with snotty nose kids getting sick. I miss him so much while im here and can't wait to hold him and kiss all over him. I hate school its so boring and i have to isolate my self to stay focus. Besides i'm not the same girl i was before Zion i don't have the same interest as my friends anymore when they have their normal teenage conversations i become bored with the gossip and etc. All i can think about or want to talk about is my son and his wonderful father and that bores them. I wish i had friends who were in my situation, friends i could have more in common with. I'm living the typical teenage mom lifestyle its either two ways, the bad outcome were you drop out of school your baby father isn't around you have no support etc. or you continue your education let your baby be your motivation marry your childs father or you guys stick it out together and you have support from your family and his and everythings perfect. I'm fortunate to have had a positive outcome for this although its still to early to brag and throw it and everyone face that i haven't given up on my education and my baby father is still around doing everything he can we are on the right path and thats whats important. Enough of that though Zion is a month and three days and he's an incredible infant like he's really amazing. He brightens everyones day he's been a huge blessing to our families I can't even say i regret having him now, i mean yeah it would have been easier if i waited i'd have my own house and be finacially stable for the next one but i'm glad he's here now. I needed him in my life to grow up to change he pushes me to want more out of life. I can't wait until he can hug me back, kiss me back, talk back to me, play with me and so much more life with him is amazing and i pray to god i'd never have to expirence life with out him, unless my time on this earth is done.