The Emotions Of a teenage mom .. .

Being 17 and pregnant is everything but easy . The baby isn't even here yet and i'm already going crazy. My room is being renovated for Zion and I have to do so much! It's already becoming a burden. Everyone feels i'm stressing for no reason but they don't even know how i'm feeling or what i'm going through, but i knew this wouldn't be easy at all , I mean financially Zion is covered so that's least of my worries. I am however worried about school , stupid family arguments , my perfect relationship becoming wrecked and a million other things. In all reality i'm people only see that i'm a very lucky girl with two great parents but its so much more that stresses me out it's crazy, but I will be find in the end because my beautiful son will be here.

The summer is coming .. .

Summer is so close , and through this heat i will be pregnant! -__- Im not happy about that at all , and being that i'm still a teenager i do think about all the things i won't be able to do this summer , such as partying , beach with friends , hanging out and all. When I made the descion to keep Zion this thought did occur in my head but the last thing on my mind was killing my unborn child. I feel im going to be miserable this summer , but I will make the best of it because towards the end my little angel will be here , I wonder how me and my boyfriends relationship will be this summer we were attached at the hip and at the time he lived right around the corner so every min of the day we were together. Now this summer I have summer school and he has to work all while preparing for Zion's arrival , it's going to be hard growing ten times faster then we would have if their was no Zion , i'm never going to regret my descion i just wish i thought more about it .. .

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Every since i've become pregnant I gained a super power .. . its a STRONG sense of smell , im not kidding its like my nose can smell a McDonald's 5 miles away! Everything i smell i want that's the main thing i hate about this. Then when im hungry Zion can't stay still he'll go bananas until I eat something , this morning i had a nice turkey sandwich on wheat bread it was delicious , but once again im hungry!! OH and another thing everybody always wants to feed me because im pregnant! :) i love that part. I try not to eat so much though because im worried that Zion will get to big too fast , hes already 2 pounds 6oz but his father is 6'5 two hundred and something pounds so i can't avoid having a big baby. I remember when i was 5 months Zion was already a pound i was freaking out , but my mom put some logic sense in my head .. . So im content with the fact im going to have a big child! So I will make sure he plays sports early , who knows I might have me a football or basketball player in their. Whatever he decides he wants to be though im backing him 100% :)

When Zion Moves .. .

So im sitting here while my wonderful boyfriend plays his ps3 and my baby boy is moving away , im almost 7 months pregnant and everythings becoming more exciting as well as weird. Zion is growing and so am I so he moves way more then he did a couple months back. Sometimes I be like alright already Zion , but most of the time I enjoy seeing him move around in my belly or kick and all. It still fascimates me how wonderful life is created ; their's really a human being living inside of me. Everything I do affects him , everything I taste so does he!! I love my unborn soooo much :)

What a Morning

So this morning around 2am - 4 ish I experienced some of the worst pain in my life i just knew I was having the baby right their in my bed it hurt so bad i couldn't even call for help so i layed their moaning and groaning couldn't even cry.  After an hour or more of the excruciating  pain It finally calmed down i was delighted because he wasn't ready to come at all. Then i had to get ready for school that was the worst i was a bit nausea but i manged to get in to school on time i rather be sick in school then sick in the bed hearing my mom nag about I better not drop out of school & blah .. blah .. blahh ..